I'm tired of this tired and painful feeling

This that has left my broken heart reeling

On the floor I stay praying while kneeling

Wanting to stop all this hurt and bleeding

I hide my tears and all my pain

Behind a broken smile and skies of gray

I watch as I slowly lose all I have gained

To the sands of time and winds of change

I fear I'm losing and as such

I feel as though I'll lose so much

I can't mend what's broken and crushed

For with my soul I've lost all touch

I smile even through my tears 

In hopes that none will see these fears

My thoughts grow confusing and so unclear

As the time for loosing draws so painfully near

~Unknown