To live with depression is not easy.
One little thing like dropping a glass of water can make you cry.
Cause then you realize that you can't even get a glass of water without fucking up.
To struggle everyday to get out of bed
To always have to find a new reason to stay alive, always need new motivation.
To have to stay away from the knife.. even when you want to feel it against your skin so bad.
It's hard having all those nightmares, having to wake up in the middle of the night and not having anyone there.. No one to talk to.
Do you have any idea of how it feels to not know whats right or wrong to yourself, that you think that the knife is the right choice.
Standing with your hands so tightly tied in front of the mirror, wanna push your hands in the mirror so that you can bleed and stop the pain.
To have your sleeping pills in your hands and consider to take them all just to end the pain, why can't you? are you that weak?
Depression is awful cause it makes you wanna die.. but in the same time you can't leave your loved once behind..
I just wish i could stop the pain, i don't wanna suffer with my demons anymore, i want them gone, i wanna be the one to chase them, not them chasing me..